The Path of No Path

~ An Open Door ~ So many years Intensity gripped my heart From birth to now Be still Not seen as if Never approaching As common as grass Be still Before me wide Open as though Was I expected? Be still Certainly not What I expected Shivering, trembling awe Be still Not barred by it Backwards known to well Freely I step through Stillness Breathing in but Not enough, winded Nothing to stand on Be Calm All is released Fallen away into Loving past. Darkness only Be Calm All reference to Any former vanishes Tentatively, floating nothingness Calmness Nothing, only everything Empty, yet full Opened fully to the embrace Be light Light, only light Flowing outward loving The light embrace Be light Watching light and darkness Lovingly, gently,dancing Together, merging in me En-light-ness, En-dark-ness Fully becoming Not surrounding not Filling. Both and neither Be fearless Solid fully standing On sacred no-ground Moment, no passing, moment Be fearless I am lifted no I lift myself Flying past seemi...

Holding you close, always. My beloved Michael, cherishing the infinite space in my heart you will forever occupy. Love is not bound by time, nor distance, nor dimensions. Wherever you are, and no matter where I am, our hearts will always find each other. Our thirty years together was merely the doorway to the infinite that awaits us both, when my tears of grief are transformed into tears of joy. May our next adventure be as glorious as this last one. Keening, William

Last night was hard for me. So much fear, terror, even. Lasted for 6 hours, I don't remember falling asleep, but it was well after 3 am. Sadly, now I know why. (holding back a flood of emotions and tears) My oldest and dearest male friend, Michael, whom I have known since 1978 has had a massive stroke while living and teaching in South Korea. The doctors say that if he wakes up today he will be a vegetable but that it is more likely that he will not survive that long. Sobbing, uncontrollable convulsive waves of tears, I love you Michael,.............. Too much grief.